Hydrophobia

I knew I was sleeping this time & I think I yelled out for help.

I seen the same field of tall aspen trees.
My entire horizon was encompassed with the high mountain forest
The blue moon's light was scattered
It dances with the shadows of the leaves in the breeze.
I ran so fast running past my self trying to get away from where I knew I was headed.
The empty feelings found in meaning when I seen the water I have seen before.
I cast my self down with my own momentum, its not worth the fight I know I am dreaming again, I still fight and struggle just incase.
I am swallowed by my icy black lake,
Peering up again I am drowning.
Eyes closed tight, the sudden realization it's not helping,
I don't want to be blind at my last second.
Life escaping passing through bubbles from of my nose,
I know it's the countdown tell the deadly cold, one of life's bubbles then two then all at once the rest.
and try and imagine a labored winter's breath pulling the cold deep into your lungs times ten. you don't breath out again.
I still see the trees they are still there but I notice this time their with leaves and find my last comfort in knowing some things do change the rest is the same.
Darkness covers everything.